It has been some time since I have poured out my thoughts as they flood my mind. In fact, you may have noticed my site go down for the last few months.

I will not say too much about the reason why, other than to say I have removed several very vulnerable posts because this world is not kind or fair and sometimes can be unreasonable.

In the void that was my absence, much occurred and much has changed. I survived once more a devastating depressive episode and took a two-month break from normal life. I started, then paused, then restarted a Masters of Counseling Psychology program. I found a company to work for that actually sees the human side of me. And I put my house up for sale in order to be closer to my children’s school district.

One quote I read during my time healing from the depression monster was, “Suicidal ideations are a sign that something needs to change, not that life needs to end.” I took this to heart and began to evaluate my life and what exactly am I being shown needs to change.

I do sincerely apologize to my readers that I may leave parts of my life out of this blog, as that has never been my intention or desire. But I still want to make a difference and I feel comfortable doing that under limitations. There is only “public” or “private” settings to choose from, so either both my supporters and my enemies will see it all or both will not see anything.

I guess I am not sure why I feel the need to explain this. I certainly don’t feel like an explanation is owed. However, I suppose I want people to know this isn’t it, this isn’t all of me. And for that I am saddened.

I’ll leave this post by saying, I am healthy. And I am grateful for that. I am giving life my all, because anything less would amount to nothing.