Did I jump the gun? Is it too early?

I guess I might have taken an abrupt hiatus from blogging. It wasn’t intentional, but also wasn’t aimlessly forgotten.

Today I read a post of someone who said she disappears a lot and she talked about how that was okay. I agree with her. It is okay sometimes to not have anything to share, to take in the world, to absorb what others give, and hold onto it for yourself.

I have held onto a lot in the last week or two. And really asked myself a lot of questions. May is Mental Health Awareness Month, along with several more specific “Weeks” and “Days” sprinkled throughout. In the past I would pour my heart out in FB posts and urge awareness and stigma-destruction. This year, I needed to absorb it all.

I needed to see if the world was catching on. I wanted to believe that all our speaking out really meant something. And it is hard. It is not easy to see the impact of it all in the midst of growing mental illness crisis in our communities.

I ask myself, is this blog just here for me to produce mental health awareness? Or do I talk about the trivial things too, like the fact I joined a dating challenge this week? Does either mean anything?

I don’t intend to sound negative. I know there is meaning in any attempt to connect and relate with the world around me. It is just difficult for me to talk about seemingly menial things when there is so much to be said about the things that truly matter.

So when I get done with this mental vacation, we’ll see where I land. Til next time!

**oh and also, if you want to send me potential men to date, my DM’s are open LOL #challengehomework